i was at national skin centre when jem msged me "uncle don just passed away" yesterday
it's shocking news coz it happened too sudden and totally unexpected...he's still young, 57 yrs old, healthy man. he always hang out with his siblings during weekend, whenever there's gathering, there's always his jokes and funny comments on any matters.
he's my mom in law's brother...youngest in the family.
i couldn't sleep....i can't imagine how i would be like if i find out my loved one, the one who sleeps beside me suddenly show no sign of life the next morning. that's exactly what happened to his son...slept beside his father.
he was died of hypertensive heart disease, passed away while sleeping. he was unwell during weekend, didn't join his sibling...he didn't see doc and still went to work...just that short 5-6 days, so much changes in the body and just....
it got me paranoid...i started to check jem and my boys...to see if they're still breathing. and now i think again, what can i do if the Lord has already decided a person can only live till this age? you know, sometimes we pray for something, wait and wait, and till one day, God answered prayer or never answer prayer but you understand why He does it....and we said in 'His perfect timing'...but i guess i'll never never never understand 'His perfect timing' when ones passed away suddenly, when one...is still not saved. as Christian, i got more and more questions to ask Him, all the 'whys'...but i know, He is God, just continue to live by faith.
i pray that jem and i will grow old together, both healthy and strong. my boys will be healthy and strong too...they are protected wherever they go.
