my retail therapy has been going pretty well recently! (^^)...very happy! just got bk from suntec today, bought another 3 tops & 1 skirt from iora. these therapy only possible when my parent in law are on leave. they purposely took leave to collect ian's new passport! so sweet!!! we go gai gai after that, i'm a bad mommy, left ian with my father in law & attacking the boutique with my mother in law. once clothes are bought, i ran out kissing my son! "oh ian, mommy miss you, muaks muaks muaks". let me count, i have almost 10 new pieces of clothes & jeans for the past 2 months. very happy.
side track a bit, i applied ian's passport online! soooooo convenient & ready for collection within a week. the waiting time in ica no longer than 5 mins. chop chop! hey lion city, i must praise you for this! you cool country!!!
this is not a happy one, ian fell off the bed yesterday! shocked the entire family! he was napping at the centre on my bed & surrounded by pillows except below his feet. i was using the comp....heard PICABOMMMM!!! everybody ran to the room, ian was on the floor crying....badly. nothing can describe how my heart felt that moment, condemned!! felt as though my heart is broken into pieces...hugging him tight & wanted to cry already!!!! i prayed so hard that he won't hv any complication, ie. vomitting or internal bleeding! thank God he's fine! how he managed to turn 180 degree & heading towards the floor is a mystery, but one thing for sure, no longer safe to leave him alone on the big bed! he can turn & move ard now. of course, i kena lectured for not watching after him by the oldest generation, not directly at me. uhmm...it's like...i'm scolding you, but actually not you, but other person. thinking bk abt the incident, heart pain! thank you Lord, for watching over ian.
what's my next therapy? pak toh therapy....
Friday, June 30, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
last time
summary of past 7 months
"last time, so & so eat this much" (same age as ian, but apparently more)
"last time, we let so & so try eat everything (age like ian), that's y so & so eat everything n not fussy"
"last time, we use powder every after so & so's bath, smell very nice" (i won't use till he turn 1 yr old, adviced from antennatal class saying not necessary n may cause asthma)
"last time, so & so slept thru the night by 2nd month" (ian not yet)
"last time, so & so start solid @ 4 mth...." (ian starts solid @ 6th month)
"last time...."
sound like small matter or just a simple remark...but to me, boiling deep inside already, makes me feel as though something is wrong with my parenting or being a militant (cannot this & that). if i'm not a christian, will fight bk saying "last time last time, how abt give birth one more time & do your "last time" thing". uhm...by publishing this statement, think it's even worst as christian...coz i announced this angrily to the world... worst!
how abt explain nicely to this "last time" ppl? no point!!! coz after explaning, they will say "oh is it, BUT last time so & so also do it, ok ah!!!" i don't disagreed with what they do, anyway, they did it and indeed, there's nothing wrong. just that for my son, me as parent, i just want to do what i think is best for him, of course, i still listen to advice...selectively. ian should eat what an infant supposed to eat, infant tummy still developing. i know by tasting other things like curry, margarine, citrus stuff...etc, may...not bring harm to his tummy, coz it's really in very small portion. but i feel ian has a lifetime to taste all this, why now, does it really make a difference? i disagree with this 'idea' that 'MUST let baby try everything so that they won't get fussy next time'...this kind of belief is absolutely nonsense to me! many ppl still fussy even doing all these 'food tasting' when young. i hate spare parts! i mean animal's...e.g. liver. don't tell me because my parents didn't let me eat all these when i'm a baby, that's why i dislike???!!! after this, when fire subsides, when i'm a bit calmer, i'll think this 'last time' ppl actually meant well...
gone is the connie with tonnes of patience & probably to some said i'm gentle :P. now what u see in connie, is only volcano who may erupt anytime! proverbs 23:7 - For as he thinks in his heart, so is he. it's so true. my heart filled with anger, jealousy & it already manifested in my daily life. my words sometimes sprinkled with some sarcasm nowadays...even without saying anything, my face tells it all, either like 'bao ching tian' the black face man or with a sign on my forehead "COME NEAR ME OR YOU'LL DIE". ppl can tell! really!!! classic example, i have this face that tells ah po "don't come into the room, i want to clean ian alone with him" look. then poor ah po came in & talk to ian for a while (my face very black by then), then walk out. but when jem's cleaning for ian, jem's face shows "welcome!!!", ah po always come in happily, stay till jem finished cleaning ian. seeking God for help desperately now, bad testimony to ppl ard me! how to win ppl to Christ??!! how how how??!! please forgive me Father :(
...anyway, just kena rebuked (hope is a gentle rebuke) by Papa in heaven yesterday. reading daily bread on 28/6/2006 abt 'gratitude'...felt as though He's rebuking me for asking $5k!!! part of daily bread said "we focus more on pressing needs than on previous provisions; we petition more (from 1k jump to 5k) than we praise" after reading this, i'm not asking for laptop, oven & mixer liao, feel bad mah!!! coz we do have all these items in bishan, just that i want it at my own home as well. jem said "why not try to bake in bishan first"...ok loh.... i will still thank God (willingly & not grudgingly, with lots of hugs & muaks *love love love*) for what i have...if my laptop, oven & mixer don't come, then i wait, not going to push for it. bye bye $5k.
"last time, so & so eat this much" (same age as ian, but apparently more)
"last time, we let so & so try eat everything (age like ian), that's y so & so eat everything n not fussy"
"last time, we use powder every after so & so's bath, smell very nice" (i won't use till he turn 1 yr old, adviced from antennatal class saying not necessary n may cause asthma)
"last time, so & so slept thru the night by 2nd month" (ian not yet)
"last time, so & so start solid @ 4 mth...." (ian starts solid @ 6th month)
"last time...."
sound like small matter or just a simple remark...but to me, boiling deep inside already, makes me feel as though something is wrong with my parenting or being a militant (cannot this & that). if i'm not a christian, will fight bk saying "last time last time, how abt give birth one more time & do your "last time" thing". uhm...by publishing this statement, think it's even worst as christian...coz i announced this angrily to the world... worst!
how abt explain nicely to this "last time" ppl? no point!!! coz after explaning, they will say "oh is it, BUT last time so & so also do it, ok ah!!!" i don't disagreed with what they do, anyway, they did it and indeed, there's nothing wrong. just that for my son, me as parent, i just want to do what i think is best for him, of course, i still listen to advice...selectively. ian should eat what an infant supposed to eat, infant tummy still developing. i know by tasting other things like curry, margarine, citrus stuff...etc, may...not bring harm to his tummy, coz it's really in very small portion. but i feel ian has a lifetime to taste all this, why now, does it really make a difference? i disagree with this 'idea' that 'MUST let baby try everything so that they won't get fussy next time'...this kind of belief is absolutely nonsense to me! many ppl still fussy even doing all these 'food tasting' when young. i hate spare parts! i mean animal's...e.g. liver. don't tell me because my parents didn't let me eat all these when i'm a baby, that's why i dislike???!!! after this, when fire subsides, when i'm a bit calmer, i'll think this 'last time' ppl actually meant well...
gone is the connie with tonnes of patience & probably to some said i'm gentle :P. now what u see in connie, is only volcano who may erupt anytime! proverbs 23:7 - For as he thinks in his heart, so is he. it's so true. my heart filled with anger, jealousy & it already manifested in my daily life. my words sometimes sprinkled with some sarcasm nowadays...even without saying anything, my face tells it all, either like 'bao ching tian' the black face man or with a sign on my forehead "COME NEAR ME OR YOU'LL DIE". ppl can tell! really!!! classic example, i have this face that tells ah po "don't come into the room, i want to clean ian alone with him" look. then poor ah po came in & talk to ian for a while (my face very black by then), then walk out. but when jem's cleaning for ian, jem's face shows "welcome!!!", ah po always come in happily, stay till jem finished cleaning ian. seeking God for help desperately now, bad testimony to ppl ard me! how to win ppl to Christ??!! how how how??!! please forgive me Father :(
...anyway, just kena rebuked (hope is a gentle rebuke) by Papa in heaven yesterday. reading daily bread on 28/6/2006 abt 'gratitude'...felt as though He's rebuking me for asking $5k!!! part of daily bread said "we focus more on pressing needs than on previous provisions; we petition more (from 1k jump to 5k) than we praise" after reading this, i'm not asking for laptop, oven & mixer liao, feel bad mah!!! coz we do have all these items in bishan, just that i want it at my own home as well. jem said "why not try to bake in bishan first"...ok loh.... i will still thank God (willingly & not grudgingly, with lots of hugs & muaks *love love love*) for what i have...if my laptop, oven & mixer don't come, then i wait, not going to push for it. bye bye $5k.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
bad wishlist
dear God, i changed my mind. no longer i need $1k, feel this amt not enough...how abt $5k :D~??? i wouldn't mind money drop from heaven by instalment. just added few more items in my wishlist...a laptop/desktop with wireless network. so i may need to buy wireless broadband router, 2 pci or wireless usb adaptor + my original items, ie oven & mixer. that would be all...what do You think? if You want me to work, is there any work that allows me to work from home & give me 3-4 hours of uninterrupted time?
update from ian's medication...more challenging than yesterdays...he already shut his mouth tight when he saw the medicine. i feel dread whenever it's medicine time! anyway, my mil pretty good at making ian swallow the medicine, by swinging him up & down, dancing with him after the executor (me) pumped in the medicine! medicine stated 'eat before meal'...we have no choice, gotta mix with papaya to get him eat...coz it's sweet. but after mixing it, still feel very bitter! *sigh*
anyway, some happy thing to share, ian can roll from bk to tummy down today!!! he's been wanting to 'eat' my camera. i put far far away, he rolled slowly and he got it finally! yay!!! so happy!
he has new style today too, sticking out his tongue when he's smiling now! i took some pics!
oh oh oh...dear God, i just imagine if there's x-men in this world, i wish i can have a camera eye! can take photos immediately, blink blink blink!!!
update from ian's medication...more challenging than yesterdays...he already shut his mouth tight when he saw the medicine. i feel dread whenever it's medicine time! anyway, my mil pretty good at making ian swallow the medicine, by swinging him up & down, dancing with him after the executor (me) pumped in the medicine! medicine stated 'eat before meal'...we have no choice, gotta mix with papaya to get him eat...coz it's sweet. but after mixing it, still feel very bitter! *sigh*
anyway, some happy thing to share, ian can roll from bk to tummy down today!!! he's been wanting to 'eat' my camera. i put far far away, he rolled slowly and he got it finally! yay!!! so happy!
he has new style today too, sticking out his tongue when he's smiling now! i took some pics!
oh oh oh...dear God, i just imagine if there's x-men in this world, i wish i can have a camera eye! can take photos immediately, blink blink blink!!!
Monday, June 26, 2006
ikea outing
brought ian out to ikea today, together with joyce. i bought a treasure box for ian, so happy! then i wanted to buy a soft toy giraffe for him too, very cute & soft, happily telling ian "ian, mommy buy this for you okie, coz mommy likes it". joyce repeated what i've said, then realise i'm buying sth which ian may not like...& true enuf, he doesn't like it...keep pushing it away :( so i didn't buy in the end.look @ the left pic...isn't he cute? this is what i mean by his new smiling style, smiling with his eyes close. oh ian, u're so so so cute!
talking abt his ear infection, doc prescribed him a very bitter medicine. poor ian has been crying so badly, keep his mouth close tight, kept on struggling & spitting out medicine. ah po was so 'ganjiong' for ian that she can't sit & stand still. we have to ask her to stay far far away. i tasted the medicine, yiaks, sucks!!! but what to do, have to complete the whole course! 3 times a day! think i'm a bad n no mercy mommy, though i know he doesn't like it & crying badly, i'm not affected by it, my heart is all out to put the medicine in his mouth, intended to use force too but jem stopped me. jem is gentle papa, kept on saying "ian good boy okie, medicine good for you, daddy knows it's very bitter, okie...give you water water, it's ok ian, it's ok...it's ok, muaks muaks muaks"...as for merciless mama cozai, just eyeing on his mouth, knowing that he will open his mouth when crying, when opportunity comes, shoot the medicine in with a syringe*cruel*. then when it's done, shower him with all TLC. best thing is i noticed liang familiy already stand by long ago for after medication mission, to make him smile again, dancing, making funny tone, and little ian starts smiling again...forgot all his bad experience.
miss perth old days
i miss perth, i miss perth. miss all the people in zion praise harvest (zph), student life in vickery & guild house, church service in bentley pine & nursing hall, cell group, outings, tulips in araluen, catching crabs down south, chilli mussels....uhm...long list... my first zph fren is sim. thinking bk, it's funny, we were trying to 'tarik' him to our baptist church, and he was trying to invite us to his church. he won! he brought me n my sis, diana to zph, and there we get to know sean, roy, mel, wen, jacq, bets, jennifer, clara, yih chong, nigel, nezzy, terence, jem, tun...(ok another long list). just thinking of these ppl, how nice & wonderful to know these group of ppl, coz i found God's love in them, and they truly care! i miss them heaps!
anyway, all graduated, bk to own country or to some stay bk kangarooland as PR, pak toh, got married, have kidz & some planning to have. sean & lisa just had their bundle of joy, little jayden (june). clara & yih chong's baby girl, little caryna (may), sim & pei li's little emily (nov '05), wen & mel's 2nd baby boy, little marcus (jan '06)...baby booming for ex-zion harvester. and and and my little nephew, christopher (diana's son) is 1.5 yr old by now.
looking bk those days, filled me with nostalgia. all of us used to study together in the library, hang out, singing & jamming. and for the ladies, we talk & dream abt our crushes, counting & naming popular gals & guys in zph (not a lot those days, coz most taken already)...those were the days!!! uhm...thank God for all these sweet memories!
used to dying to go bk to perth couple years ago...talked to jem for years! "when are we going bk to stay for good? when?"...the conclusion is...not in near future or ...probably...never. feel God's calling for us is in singapore now...bcoz of jem's many precious unsaved family members n so r mine. anyway, zion praise harvest will never be the same again. ppl i hold dear to are all over the world, but even if we're in the same lion city, we hardly meet up...all hv own commitment. but i still think of them :D the goodie old days :D
anyway, all graduated, bk to own country or to some stay bk kangarooland as PR, pak toh, got married, have kidz & some planning to have. sean & lisa just had their bundle of joy, little jayden (june). clara & yih chong's baby girl, little caryna (may), sim & pei li's little emily (nov '05), wen & mel's 2nd baby boy, little marcus (jan '06)...baby booming for ex-zion harvester. and and and my little nephew, christopher (diana's son) is 1.5 yr old by now.
looking bk those days, filled me with nostalgia. all of us used to study together in the library, hang out, singing & jamming. and for the ladies, we talk & dream abt our crushes, counting & naming popular gals & guys in zph (not a lot those days, coz most taken already)...those were the days!!! uhm...thank God for all these sweet memories!
used to dying to go bk to perth couple years ago...talked to jem for years! "when are we going bk to stay for good? when?"...the conclusion is...not in near future or ...probably...never. feel God's calling for us is in singapore now...bcoz of jem's many precious unsaved family members n so r mine. anyway, zion praise harvest will never be the same again. ppl i hold dear to are all over the world, but even if we're in the same lion city, we hardly meet up...all hv own commitment. but i still think of them :D the goodie old days :D
Sunday, June 25, 2006
home alone with koala prince
daily conversation with ian in sengkang this week
- ian, mom mom, ahhhhhhh.....(open his mouth n eat), ahhh, good boyyyy..yehhhh...ahhhhh, iannnnn!! stop biting other things, open your mouth...ahhhh!!! ahhhh
- ian, mommy kiss kiss (ignored me and look away)
- ian, you boot boot ah, come!! mommy wash your backside
- ian, no no no...dirty. let mommy wash
- ian, ouch!!! mommy pain!!! nooooo!! stop biting me...no no..(use my finger to press his teeth) he doesn't feel sorry...staring at me, turn his eyes to my finger, grab my fingers and bite!!!
- ian, hellooooo!!! wah...u smile huhhhh, handsome boyyyyy
- ouchhh!!! ian, stop pulling mommy's hair!!! let go let go!!!
- ....etc
- ian, ekk ekk ooooo ahhhh eeee bom bom bom (run out of words)
had wonderful time with ian this week, tiring as it is...but i enjoyed every moment with him...he's not impressed with all my clown action again...so i have to carry him ard. brought him down for walk walk everyday, experimenting new solid food like egg yolk, sweet potato, steamed apple & bread. sometimes i feel i'm very wanted by my son (feel great :D), but sometimes i wish he can be alone by himself like half an hour...esp when i feel like poo poo but can't :P. oh oh oh...he discovered the wonders of his fingers too, been vandalising my body when drinking milk milk, i'm scarred!
this week is also my new adventurous journey with his new tooth! 2 new members in his mouth! let me tell uuuu!!! this kind of bite (bite u know where) easily triggering the volcano eruption in me, and i just did this morning! not on him!!! he woke up super early this morning (almost 6am) n refuse to sleep bk and he's been biting me whenever he's up at night. so painful!!! *&#$#@ jem can't help much so he continue his zzz journey, everybody in the household still in their dreamland, left me with this little cute monkey...so tired n frustrated because of the bite! i can tahan any thing!!! ANYTHING except this bite in this 'place'. can finally understand what other mommies describe as 'dread'. thank God ah po came in @ ard 7 plus and brought ian out to play. i vented out my frus by digging out my wallet, took out all the cards, dig my drawer, take out my bank book, looking at how much i have, hoping my bank book have tonnes of money for me to go for shopping spree...in the end, left all on the bed. money not enuf!! jem was sleeping with erupted lava ....bank book n cards.
anyway, brought ian to see doc today, coz of ear infection, common among infants n toddlers coz they always scratch their ears when tired. it came so bad that there's pus discharge n funny smell (uhmm...let me describe the smell, like...our hardened mucus stayed too long in our nose and smell quite 'salty'...:P)...can't update my blog much now coz i gotta go bk to my room n stay with him...he just woke up 30 mins ago, scratched his ear till bleed! so heart pain!!! gonna co-sleep with him, hv to act fast to stop him from scratching when he's up. oh God, help me to stay alert at night! pls heal him in Jesus name! AMEN AMEN AMEN!!!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
home sweet home
will be going home tonight :D yay! miss my own sengkang home. not been bk for 2 weeks plus liao and i'll be there and networkless for whole week. well, as usual, in laws naturally ask whether i can handle ian alone. i'm not even concerned abt this, if ah po can handle 3 kidz, if all the sahm can do this without assistance in the past or even present, i can do so too! no big deal!!! my cooking may not taste as good, but so long as it's healthy & eatable, i'm fine. anyway, they're not concerned so much abt me, it's more for little koala, their precious, nobody else except me will play with him, feeling as though i'm depriving him from having fun & make him suffer :(
jem said i'm sensitive! whether it's true, i'm just venting.
jem said i'm sensitive! whether it's true, i'm just venting.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
renew passion?
as usual, i would visit my m4m forum daily, to see if anything i can contribute or ask. gotta do at least one posting every 10 days, else the taukeh of this forum will kick me out. i've been frequent to the breastfeeding mother n baking thread. today decided to click the 'crafter place', a place for cross-stichers, knitters and others...uhm...make my hand itchy! kind of ignite my interest to cross-stitch again. was stitching one very cute pic (cow, sheep & pig) before ian's arrival...thought of hanging it in ian's room, very cute u know! very cute! but it's been collecting dust ever since ian is born. would rather take the time to zzz, coz i still gotta get up more than 3 times every night *panda eyes liao*. arghh!!! don't know lah, trying to be fruitful every day, i have so many impressive to do list
1. spend quiet time with my dear Shepherd
2. do some reading, to know what's happening to our dying world :P
3. exercise to keep fit (can't stand my flabby tummy)
4. wear nice nice at home, shopping, buy nice clothes, learn makeup, want to tell the world, sahm also can be pretty pretty, not the typical 'huang nian po'
5. learn new programming language (wowwww)
6. bake cake (yummy)
7. cross stitch to hang all over my home
i do none of the above, instead i do the following,
1. spending quiet time on my bed, napping with ian, looking at him...he's looking at me, hands touch my face and ......pinch!!! ouch!!! hands touch my hair.....grab & pull!!! oouch ouch ouch!!!!
2. reading forums, do blogging. uhmmm...*flip flip flip newspaper, very focus* uhmm...any discount for my oven & mixer??
3. my new nike shoe is still very lonely n waiting for me. wrestling with ian during his shower time, n poo poo time, n carrying him ard when i don't know what else to do with him, visiting the fridge x number of times to see if there's food for me to eat. (how to lose weight???)
4. big big t-shirt, messy hair, long dirty toes, panda eyebag, strawberry nose
5. not programming language, but probably some new $#^%#*& when feeling frustrated
6. brownie found in toilet
7. tba
it's ok. will continue to aim n achieve for my goals. can't wait to attend church tmr...wo hohhh!!!
Thursday, June 15, 2006
which one?
went for ian's hep b jab today, the nurse said "ohhh!!! so cuteeee, look like koala bearrrrrr!!". am so proud to hear that! of course lah! my son leh :P anyway, my heart sanked when hear him crying while taking his jab but thank God jem took leave n be there for him. we sing to ian right after his jab, stop crying after a while...phewwww! and mommy's milk milk calms him down too :P
went out 'pak toh' with jem today! yay!!! okie...uhm...let me see...after...at least 2 months? ard there. i mean...alone without our little koala prince, very happy :D! out for 2 hours but good enough. we went ck tang, to check on oven & mixer prices. i was actually planning to buy if the price is reasonable, i hv a consultant husband telling me whether it's cost effective to buy such expensive items. so in the end...i came home empty handed.
found an alternative for KitchenAid mixer $679, it's a Kenwood Pattisier mixer $398...*sigh* so ex! made in china some more! for me, i'm willing to spend a bomb on these 2 items, whether or not i use it often. but by doing so, i'll be 'suan' by liang family every week. "hey connie, where's your cake???". jem's friend's wife bought an expensive oven too, he said "my wife bake only once, only 3 cookies...very expensive cookies....$150 each".
how how how?! want!!! i want baby belling oven $500, i want kenwood mixer $400! "money money home, money money homeeeee"...maybe...best to wait, hope price drop.
went out 'pak toh' with jem today! yay!!! okie...uhm...let me see...after...at least 2 months? ard there. i mean...alone without our little koala prince, very happy :D! out for 2 hours but good enough. we went ck tang, to check on oven & mixer prices. i was actually planning to buy if the price is reasonable, i hv a consultant husband telling me whether it's cost effective to buy such expensive items. so in the end...i came home empty handed.
found an alternative for KitchenAid mixer $679, it's a Kenwood Pattisier mixer $398...*sigh* so ex! made in china some more! for me, i'm willing to spend a bomb on these 2 items, whether or not i use it often. but by doing so, i'll be 'suan' by liang family every week. "hey connie, where's your cake???". jem's friend's wife bought an expensive oven too, he said "my wife bake only once, only 3 cookies...very expensive cookies....$150 each".
how how how?! want!!! i want baby belling oven $500, i want kenwood mixer $400! "money money home, money money homeeeee"...maybe...best to wait, hope price drop.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
rebel!
my parent in law came bk from japan trip today. bought lots of food & clothes.... ian has the most! my mil bought him 5 tops, 1 mickey mouse soft toy, 1 japanese sandal (very cute! will post pic later), 2 photo frames (snoopy & spiderman). ian is very very blessed n loved! i wonder whether he can finish wearing all his new clothes...so manyyy!!! as i said, very nice top n unfortunately NO pants to match! cannot cannot!!! i must buy new pants for him!!!
anyway, another story! i increased the rice cereal portion slightly this evening, ian finished all of them. i'm sooooo....impressed :D!!! the best part is he already opened up his mouth big big before i feed him, make noise when i'm too slow! haha! good! but there's one thing really makes me a bit upset...why can't praise a child when he finished his food??!!! why why??
this afternoon
me: "wow, he finished all his food :D"
someone: "don't say finish all, no good"
me: "why? what's wrong of saying it??!!!?"
yah!! why???!! i don't understand!!! feeling agitated already! don't tell me abt 'pantang'. if it's pantang, i'm sorry, i'm a rebel to 'pantang'! the more u stop me, the more i do it. and what's wrong with praising a child??? someone told me "don't tell your kid, he's clever, handsome", "must say stupid! ugly pig!"...anything statement that put a child down. maybe this is asian's mindset, or from the older generation...must be humble..praising too much make a child proud. i don't know n i disagree.
bible says "death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit. prov 18:21. i'll speak positive things to my son! hope ian grows up like jeremy, ever so steady and confident, better still, be like Jesus. ian, pls don't be like mommy okie, one sotong/blur queen in the family is enough.
anyway, another story...ian can sit up!!! shhhhh!!! don't tell my family okie. i was told not to make him sit up as his spine still not strong yet. i thought of give it a try yesterday (uhmm...or the night before) to let him sit...and he cannnn!!!! not for long...n quickly cuddle him and kiss kiss!!
anyway, another story! i increased the rice cereal portion slightly this evening, ian finished all of them. i'm sooooo....impressed :D!!! the best part is he already opened up his mouth big big before i feed him, make noise when i'm too slow! haha! good! but there's one thing really makes me a bit upset...why can't praise a child when he finished his food??!!! why why??
this afternoon
me: "wow, he finished all his food :D"
someone: "don't say finish all, no good"
me: "why? what's wrong of saying it??!!!?"
yah!! why???!! i don't understand!!! feeling agitated already! don't tell me abt 'pantang'. if it's pantang, i'm sorry, i'm a rebel to 'pantang'! the more u stop me, the more i do it. and what's wrong with praising a child??? someone told me "don't tell your kid, he's clever, handsome", "must say stupid! ugly pig!"...anything statement that put a child down. maybe this is asian's mindset, or from the older generation...must be humble..praising too much make a child proud. i don't know n i disagree.
bible says "death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit. prov 18:21. i'll speak positive things to my son! hope ian grows up like jeremy, ever so steady and confident, better still, be like Jesus. ian, pls don't be like mommy okie, one sotong/blur queen in the family is enough.
anyway, another story...ian can sit up!!! shhhhh!!! don't tell my family okie. i was told not to make him sit up as his spine still not strong yet. i thought of give it a try yesterday (uhmm...or the night before) to let him sit...and he cannnn!!!! not for long...n quickly cuddle him and kiss kiss!!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
no title
ah gong is well-known for his western food...apple pie, quiche, pizza, steak, scones, butter cake..etc...superb!!! :D! but yesterday was the exceptional one, he bought different brand ready-made puff pastry n the puff does not puff up well after baking. "ji gai abu pai laujiiii!!!" said ah po. (this apple pie lousy). uhmm...we think so too...except the filling..still very nice. i'll still eat.
ahhh...*tired*...just had my exercise of the day...jumping like a clown, play 'tai ji', stupid ballet, tickle u elmo, any act that requires to raise my hands up high to make ian smile n laugh...he will normally very excited when ah po do that...i did that many times but he's not impressed..only today...so i'm very happy today.
anyway, world cup has started, i haven't watched even a single match at all. i always looking forward to 9pm...cozzzz....that's the time when i can use comp without taking turn with jem, he will offer me the comp automatically, his priority is world cup. then 10pm, i will gladly let him use the comp, coz i want to watch 'da chang jin'.
Monday, June 12, 2006
white thing
eiii?...looks like white in color, touch touch...omg!!!! it's rough! ian is teething!!! my smooth sailing nursing days is going to over soon, and will have lots of 'ouch ouch, ian, no nooooooo....don't bite mommy' days to come. started solid food for almost 3 weeks, decided just to feed him rice cereal, his tummy can take it so far...today is the first day he finished all the food. not doing very well with the heinz brand (bottle food) though, i woke up more than 4 times at night for the past 2-3 weeks, not sure what's wrong with him...suspect tummy upset or simply he can't settle himself to sleep...don't know. now wake up 3 times at night consider pretty good liao.
ever since the success of "making ian to sleep without me", think ah po feels that there's hope in making him sleep...she's trying now...and i'm here to update my blog.
eh...mission failed...ian is with me now...whacking the keyboard while i'm typing.
ever since the success of "making ian to sleep without me", think ah po feels that there's hope in making him sleep...she's trying now...and i'm here to update my blog.
eh...mission failed...ian is with me now...whacking the keyboard while i'm typing.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
surprised!!!
ian is sleeping....without me nursing him!!! ah bo is playing with ian in ah po's room while i'm napping in joyce's room, ah po came in later n said, "ian is sleeping"...both jem n me were in shock...first time after 3 months of having me to nurse him to nap/sleep. ok, that doesn't mean he needs me no more. he still needs me to nurse most of the time, the exceptional case like today is because he's very very tired. supposed to be happy coz i'm freed...but feeling a bit sad though. uhmm...i'm very honest with my feeling okie, i have this sad feeling that ian needs mommy no more :(. though ian's habit causes quite a fair bit of inconveniences in my life, like i can't go out for long, can't go for my retail therapy, everybody in the household attempted to make him sleep but failed, i actually don't mind nursing him to sleep...i enjoy and i cherish every moment with him. every direct nursing mothers can identify with me with this. baby grows up fast!
for the past 1 week, ian is growing stronger, i have been wrestling with him during bath time, nursing time n hugging time. this boy suddenly become a protest king, move non-stop!!! gone are the days when he nurse n bathe quietly...no more liao!!
gloomy and mixer-less
another rainy day, we missed church service today. jem is still not well. anyway, even if jem is well, can't go either, i have very strong opposition fr liang family, cannot bring ian to church due to the weather!
i received wendy j's choc cake recipe yesterday! haha, so excited! looking forward to bake this very rich chocolaty cake! i ate her cake before, it's soooooo yummy, so unforgetable....*drooling*, printed out many other chocolate related stuff too. if my choc cake is successful, my next mission is to make this fondant choc, melting choc ooooooozing out!!! wahh haha!!!
i'm still thinking of the kitchenAid mixer...$S679 (promo)....*sigh*...why so ex! crazyyyyy!!??? that money can buy a big screen tv or fridge or washing machine!!!...if i were to buy this, i better make sure i bake every week. dying to go ck tang now....hope to see other alternatives, and just as gd as this brand...mayer's price really no joke...but their products are pretty good! lots of positive comments. *sigh*
i received wendy j's choc cake recipe yesterday! haha, so excited! looking forward to bake this very rich chocolaty cake! i ate her cake before, it's soooooo yummy, so unforgetable....*drooling*, printed out many other chocolate related stuff too. if my choc cake is successful, my next mission is to make this fondant choc, melting choc ooooooozing out!!! wahh haha!!!
i'm still thinking of the kitchenAid mixer...$S679 (promo)....*sigh*...why so ex! crazyyyyy!!??? that money can buy a big screen tv or fridge or washing machine!!!...if i were to buy this, i better make sure i bake every week. dying to go ck tang now....hope to see other alternatives, and just as gd as this brand...mayer's price really no joke...but their products are pretty good! lots of positive comments. *sigh*
Saturday, June 10, 2006
sleep-walk-talk
what's wrong with the internet connection today? here i am, can get to sit in front of my comp finally, n the internet is so slow (faster faster, ian is waking up soonnnn!!!!). the whole of liang empire was sleeping just now, left me n ian. i only managed to sleep for 10 mins n my dear son wakes up, hoping that the rest can entertain him but realised they're all resting. "ok! ian, let's go down for a walk" (i ran out of words to talk to him already). by carrying him ard with a sling, i don't have to talk :P. then nurse him sleep when we're bk.
anyway, i noticed ian doesn't really enjoy me 'talking' to him, i mean....not for long...he prefers me to carry him ard, lift him up high *heavy*. maybe mommy too boring!!! other ppl like ah gong n ah po can talk to him lying down on the bed with the same words, laughter n songs REPEATEDLY, he seems to enjoy n doesn't need to be carried. arghhh...i wish i can be like them too, how nice if both me n ian lie on the bed, just have this non-human lingo 'bi bi bo bo, bang bang, ah ah, deng deng, bom bom bom' to keep him entertain. fat hope lah, cozai!
anyway, ian is up already...the whole of liang household are up too...:D, they're talking to him now :D
anyway, i noticed ian doesn't really enjoy me 'talking' to him, i mean....not for long...he prefers me to carry him ard, lift him up high *heavy*. maybe mommy too boring!!! other ppl like ah gong n ah po can talk to him lying down on the bed with the same words, laughter n songs REPEATEDLY, he seems to enjoy n doesn't need to be carried. arghhh...i wish i can be like them too, how nice if both me n ian lie on the bed, just have this non-human lingo 'bi bi bo bo, bang bang, ah ah, deng deng, bom bom bom' to keep him entertain. fat hope lah, cozai!
anyway, ian is up already...the whole of liang household are up too...:D, they're talking to him now :D
Friday, June 09, 2006
solid food
ian started solid food 1 week ago. 1st is rice cereal...it's fun! he gave me this 'ewwwww, yiaks!!' look when he first tasted it...don't like :P. i gave the same food for many days...n he's opening his mouth big big now. then my mother in law is very excited too, bought many types of baby food, we tried the 'sweet potato + pumpkin' food...ian pretty likes it but doesn't eat much. look at him, look at him!!! isn't he cute???!!!
sick bug!
the king and the prince of liang are sick today. both down with coughing. ian has cough n runny nose, jem has sore throat n cough. while i’m happy that jem is at home today, which also means we’ll be fighting for computer. of course, i’ll be the losing party, coz sick person has all the privileges. "connie, oranges pls....connie, can i use the computer?...i'm sick, very poor thing"
it's great singapore sales!!!! supposed to go out today, to ck tang, looking for oven n mixer...!!! then the most important persons are sick! good timing (--) how how how??!!! reading all the baking recipes and tips in the forum makes me drooling...uhmm...if i bought it, will make secretly at my own home...till it's very very nice then let our dowager (ah po) try, she's a food critic, if she says pass, i'm safe! *sigh*...with ian ard, i wonder i can ever finish sifting the flour.
been doing some research on ovens n mixers...not cheap! thinking of baby belling (~$499 promo now) n kenwood mixer (don't know how much)...the only setbk for baby belling is cannot see through...a beginner like me doesn't have a lot of faith...probably buy those that can see thru better yah :D...mixer: either kitchenAid (model: KM 150) or kenwood brand... a jobless cum no income mommy like me gotta think very long, whether to get now or later. i'm like that, if i want sth, i want to invest on the gd one! cheap cheap no good. just like our fan in sengkang, bought it cheap, n now broke into 2...have to using 'taring' to tie them up!
it's raining now, oh God, how abt rain some money down, orrrr, let me see a $S1000 note on the floor plsssss!!! thank You. Amen
it's great singapore sales!!!! supposed to go out today, to ck tang, looking for oven n mixer...!!! then the most important persons are sick! good timing (--) how how how??!!! reading all the baking recipes and tips in the forum makes me drooling...uhmm...if i bought it, will make secretly at my own home...till it's very very nice then let our dowager (ah po) try, she's a food critic, if she says pass, i'm safe! *sigh*...with ian ard, i wonder i can ever finish sifting the flour.
been doing some research on ovens n mixers...not cheap! thinking of baby belling (~$499 promo now) n kenwood mixer (don't know how much)...the only setbk for baby belling is cannot see through...a beginner like me doesn't have a lot of faith...probably buy those that can see thru better yah :D...mixer: either kitchenAid (model: KM 150) or kenwood brand... a jobless cum no income mommy like me gotta think very long, whether to get now or later. i'm like that, if i want sth, i want to invest on the gd one! cheap cheap no good. just like our fan in sengkang, bought it cheap, n now broke into 2...have to using 'taring' to tie them up!
it's raining now, oh God, how abt rain some money down, orrrr, let me see a $S1000 note on the floor plsssss!!! thank You. Amen
Thursday, June 08, 2006
hot hot
click....click....not nice...uhm...not very nice..wah!! ugly..click...i think this blogskin is going to make me go blind. i can't find a skin i like!!!!
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